In prison or the morgue by the end of the day?

There is a very good chance that I will be in prison by the end of the day; maybe even dead.

Before I go into details I want to state my slogan: All I ever wanted to do was to have earned a living in peace.

This latest round of attempts to silence me stem from the simple question I asked of the Chief Executive of East London Foundation NHS Trust, Dr Robert Dolan: what precisely are the delusions that I am supposed to have. Despite repeatedly asking the question he has refused to answer.

I have tried to get the Department of Health and even the Minister to ‘encourage’ him to respond, but they refuse to intervene claiming that it is a local matter.

Dr Dolan’s resistance to answer the question is because there are no delusions. The diagnosis of persistent delusional disorder by ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson was a pure fabrication to justify the detention ordered by the FTAC. Dr Dolan cannot produce the evidence used for the diagnosis because there isn’t any.

I have repeatedly offered to be examined by a truly independent (i.e. non-NHS and preferably non-UK) set of medical professionals to assess me. I would provide completely truthful and detailed answers to their questions. This offer has been rejected.

This week we have had the very sad case of Derrick Bird in Cumbria. Inevitably I can identify with the poor man. When I listened to a medical pundit on the radio the other morning I was reminded of just how incompetent the doctors are. His explanation of the motivations and choices made by people in these situations is way off. The pundit ended by stating the obvious that they do not really know because the individual usually ends up dead.

Let me state that I have no wish and certainly no plans to do this myself. However, I have to state that this could be a scenario at some point in the future. This is not a threat, but simply one of the many scenarios to be considered. I expressed that I have insights into the though processes of these cases and would be willing to share them in return for having my life back. This was ceased upon by Dr Dolan as an excuse to send the police round again.

There is no way that I will ever talk to the police under any circumstances. I will never let them in to my home. If they want to take me then the will have to break in. This is because of the actions of the police last time. I let them in then, but they lied about it. I will not put myself in the same position again.

All of this can be solved very quickly and easily. All that needs to be done is for the damage done to me to be repaired and that I am allowed to work again. The country needs people like me to generate wealth to pay off the debts that grew exponentially due to the insanity of the last regime. Claiming that documented facts are not true and locking people up who complain about government incompetence, fraud and corruption is not the way to go.

Update

17:00 – The police are a no-show. I was convinced that they would be banging on my door this morning. It’s unusual for them to take ‘No’ for an answer when they say they want a ‘chat’.

I’ve had the NHS paying loads of visits to this blog today. They are probably trying to find something that they can distort into a reason lock me up. I had five months of them trying to do that. It didn’t work then and it won’t work now.

I have the police at my door.

They arrived at 10pm.

“We want to have a chat”, they say. “Sorry, I’m not going to talk to you”, says I.

After last time I let them in, there is no way that I am going to do it again. If they want to take me away then they will have to force their way in and record it as such.

Even if they take me away I will not say anything to them.

Updates

10:28

They have got bored and wandered off. I expect them to be back later.

A radical solution to getting me off benefits: Let me work

Iain Duncan-Smith thinks that he is the man to cut the benefit bill by threatening to put people into chain gangs picking up dog mess in the local park. Just how that makes them more attractive candidates in the eyes of employers I don’t know. I am open to instruction on how that works.

I have repeatedly begged for help to get back to work, but have been refused on every occasion. From reports I read and hear, I haven’t lost out on much. There was a chap o the wireless the other day describing what the ‘help’ he gets. He is put in front of a computer and told to search and apply for jobs on-line. There simply isn’t any practical help available. I don’t need instruction on how to find roles, or how to apply for them. I already have a good CV. There is nothing lacking in my motivation either. The days of me having any self-respect or pride have long been abandoned and I will do accept any form of employment no matter how degrading, disgusting, or even dangerous.

Every time the letter box rattles I have a mini-panic attack out of fear that today will be the day that I get called in to have the reassessment done on my incapacity claim. What am I to say to them? On the one hand I have on my record that I have been held under section 3 and diagnosed with having persistent delusional disorder. However, when challenged with the question “What are your delusions”, I have to respond with “I don’t know, they won’t tell me”. The supplemental question of “Do you think that you are delusional?” I have to respond with “No.” That will cause my claim to be closed and I be left destitute with no hope of ever being able to get back to work.

Before all my trouble started, I was a highly skilled and experienced freelance IT developer in the financial sector. That was before the Labour government flooded the market with fraudulent work permits. At the beginning I did not lack skills; I did not have any background problems such as poor credit history; I do not have an alcohol problem and have never taken drugs. I was a totally respectable business person. All that happened was that I was denied the opportunity to earn a living through the use of cheap imported workers on fraudulent work permits. Once a gap in the employment history appears, it compounds exponentially. Very rapidly my life collapsed as the money I had ran out.

Although I have tried my best to keep both my technical skills and business knowledge up-to-date it is a bit patchy. My physical and mental health has been damaged so much that I don’t believe I could safely work full time until I have had substantial medical treatment first. In any case, no employer would ever hire me given my background. When they find out about the time I have spend out of work, my disastrous financial status, and now a history of mental health problems any employer will bin any application. These details can never be hidden; any attempt by me to do so will be found out and would make things even worse.

The solution to getting me off benefits and back to work is not to be found by driving me into ever deeper poverty and degradation. It is to be found in asking questions about what put me out of work in the first place and why are applications for jobs rejected. Every person will have unique circumstances, but there will be many common features.

Demonising claimants is counter productive. It is not going to shame people into getting jobs, but it is going to make employers more prejudiced against hiring them. To solve the problem it is necessary to get tough on the employers and not the unemployed.

Can Andrew Lansley get Dr Dolan to answer the question?

I never expect an answer to these questions because I am excluded from having any political representation. However, I continue to try so that critics cannot say later that I should have gone through the political process.

To: Andrew Lansley MP, Simon Burns MP, Paul Burstow MP
Cc: Dr Robert Dolan East London NHS, Rushanara Ali MP, FTAC Watch

Dear Gentlemen,

I am trying to get the Chief Executive to East London NHS, Dr Robert Dolan, to respond to a question regarding the justification used to imprison me between November 2008 and April 2009 in one of the hospitals he controls. However, despite repeated requests he, and all those under his command, refuses to provide me with any response.

The consultant responsible was a Doctor Ferdinand Jonsson. He claimed that I suffer from a persistent delusional disorder. I dispute this claim. I have requested that I be told what those so-called delusions are. Specifically, I have requested for each delusion, a) what that belief is, b) proof that I actually do hold that belief, and c) proof that the belief is a delusion. However, I cannot get Doctor Jonsson, Doctor Dolan, or anyone else to tell me the answers to these simple questions.

I do not believe that I have any delusions and their reluctance to provide any evidence that I do just supports that position. The things that I said during my time imprisoned at Mile End Hospital I can provide documentary evidence for, have come to pass and are now in the historical record, or are wildly held beliefs by respectable people. Anything else is a fabrication by Doctor Jonsson who cannot provide evidence to support his position.

If East London NHS is confident that they made the correct diagnosis then why won’t they state the evidence that it is based on?

Can you use your influence to encourage Doctor Dolan to provide a suitable response to my questions?

This blog has chronicled the many attempts I have made to resolve my situation. Everyone of then has failed. Nothing gets any sort of response. My experience is typical. This is why people find that they have to turn to violence.

If anyone has any suggestion as to what I can do to get out of the problems I am in without hurting myself or others then I will follow them.

All I ever wanted to do was to have earned a living in peace – the New Labour regime stole that from me.

Dr Robert Dolan (Chief Executive of East London NHS) what are my delusions?

I have recently been trying to get an answer to a simple question from East London NHS Foundation Trust; specifically Doctor Robert Dolan the Chief Executive. (robert.dolan@eastlondon.nhs.uk) According to ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson, I suffer from Persistent Delusional Disorder. The NHS has a buzz-phrase that they use everywhere ‘evidence based’. For ‘doctor’ Jonsson to arrive at a diagnosis he would have had to identify delusional beliefs that I hold. What are they?

Formally put, my question was: for each of my delusions, a) what was the belief; b) proof that I do/did hold that belief; c) proof that the belief is a delusion.

Not that difficult a question is it? However, Dr Robert Dolan and the East London NHS refuse to tell me the answer. If Dr Robert Dolan and the East London NHS who employ ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson maintain their assertion that the diagnosis is correct then why will the not allow it to be subjected to proper scrutiny?

As far as the things that I did actually say, I can either provide documentary evidence, they have come to pass and are now part of the historical record, or they are widely held beliefs by respected people. All that remains are those that were fabricated by ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson.

The truth is that there are no delusions. It was the FTAC who ordered ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson to detain me. Doctor Jonsson fabricated a reason to hold me and got two other medical professionals to back him up. He spent the next five months subjecting me to degradation, abuse and assault.

I have already documented on this blog that there was dissent amongst the doctors, the ward staff openly refusing to obey ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson’s orders and backing me up at the tribunal, and the tribunal ridiculing Jonsson with their questioning which led them to order my discharge.

Doctor Robert Dolan was fully aware of what was going on, but refused to intervene. This was despite my direct appeals to him. He condones the use of NHS facilities for political detentions.

UPDATE (24-May-2010 16:00)

A quick check of my stats shows I've had a visit from the Maudsley Hospital (IP:80.0.251.1). Hello there!

There has also been a visit from someone else at the NHS (IP:194.176.105.55). This one was via Google where they have discovered that this post is on the first page of results for "dr robert dolan"

Stephen Timms MP Stabbed

I know nothing about the case. I doubt that the truth will ever be heard.

I have no sympathy for Stephen Timms. He won’t be the last. This is what happens when you fuck people’s lives up.

Sadly I doubt that message will get across to the politicians that they are responsible for the destruction of people’s lives. It will have to be repeated until they listen.

UPDATE

As per normal, I have had a few e-mails and comments suggesting that I approve of stabbing people and MPs in particular. Let me state so that there cannot be any misunderstanding that I do not think that stabbing people is right.

I have to repeat myself – MPs, particularly Labour ones of the last thirteen years, have caused massive damage to peoples lives, they will not listen when their victims try and explain their problems. Some people are so desperate, frustrated, fearful of their future, and angry about being unable to communicate with deliberately obtuse MPs that they have to find another language that they might understand. That language, unfortunately, is violence.

There is no prospect that MPs will become more perceptive or responsive. In response to this latest event they will become more insular. Thus a positive feedback look is created and things can only get worse.

I have no knowledge of this case, but I should imagine that the poor woman is currently being subjected to intensive questioning to try and fabricate a diagnosis of some psychotic disorder. If it is true or not doesn’t matter. What will never be considered are any injustices committed against her or the desperation she feels that with nothing left to lose, she strike out. We will never get to find out the truth.

Cameron was responsible for FTAC detaining me

When I was held prisoner by ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson at Mile End Hospital on orders from the FTAC they referred to an email that I had sent. There were three targeted recipients of that e-mail: Gordon Brown, David Cameron and George Galloway. The email to Gordon Brown always fails as his mailbox is set to being full so that he doesn’t get any e-mail. George Galloway always deletes emails from me without ever reading them. So that leaves David Cameron, unless my e-mail was being intercepted, as the source of the email that was being referred to by FTAC and Jonsson.

I have repeatedly asked for a statement from the Conservatives about their plans for the continued use of the FTAC to disappear the politically inconvenient, but they have always refused to comment on the issue. One can only assume that they plan to use it in the same way as Labour.

If the Conservatives succeed in overthrowing the Labour regime on Thursday I will have very mixed feeling. On the one hand I will rejoice that Labour was gone, but I know that my life will probably be even worse under the new regime. I face an extremely grime future; there is no realistic chance of me ever working again as nobody would ever take me, but I will be driven into ever deeper poverty and subjected to continually increasing abuse from the government to find work. I think the best thing for me (other than take my own life) is to commit some serious crime so that I spend the rest of my life in prison or mental hospital. At least I will be kept warm and feed. I will also have a bed; which is something I don’t have now.

It is all such a waste. I have never fully understood why they did this to me. I was highly skilled. I was extremely hard working. I just became collateral damage of the incompetence and corruption of members of parliament from all parties.

All I ever wanted to do was to have earned a living in peace.