The police have been banging on my door again. I refused to let them in. I am all alone here with no witnesses. I cannot do that.
“Can you come out here and talk to us then?” – Yeah, right. After last time I have learned a lot. If I was in a public area, they would cart me off in a second.
I say “Go away”, and go about my business.
After a few minutes they bang on my door again and say, “We’re going now. Just to let you know the authorities are going to be coming round to take care of you”.
What does that mean? They are going to ‘take care of me’ are they? Somehow I don’t think that is going to be in my favour. I am going to be in prison very soon.
Please can all that read this blog remember that I have been begging for help for years and all I have got has been abuse. I am not sick, I am not a criminal; all I want is to be allowed to work on equal terms with everyone else. I am being locked up for wanting to work.
As always: All I ever wanted to do was to have earned a living in peace.
They can only detain you for any length of time on the pretext of mental illness and you know as well as I do that they will have to continue lying to do that. But they might do it and if so they will drug you so that you appear to be mentally ill. That is with heavy tranks so that you resemble a tranked "schizo". ("Schizos" only look like "schizos" because they're drugged.)
ReplyDeleteIf they do that sit tight, although it is extremely unpleasant. You will get the opportunity to see a lawyer although it might take a few weeks. A free lawyer can in a lot of ways be better than a hot shot.
Make sure you memorize the email addresses of the commentors that have mailed you. You've probably stashed a copy of your blog and some of us have as well. If you get hauled off you probably won't be able to access any files and if you are drugged you will have a very hard time defending yourself.
I know it's not much, but we WON'T forget you. Try to keep strong and do as Rod advises, hard though it might be.
ReplyDeleteThoughts, prayers and good wishes as always - I just wish there was more I could do.
God bless and keep you.
Thanks Rod and Hedgehog.
ReplyDeleteI don’t know when the ‘authorities’ will come round to ‘take care of me’ as the police threatened earlier. I could get the 2am knock, or it could be tomorrow. I expect them at any time.
One thing is for certain, the ‘care’ that they will give to me will not pleasant.
If only I could rely on the police, or whoever, to make it terminal and quick. I have had more than enough of all this. I have tried to do it myself, but I keep messing it up. I don’t want be in a position where I survive, but in an even worse condition.
Yes, I kept an archive of this blog.
If anyone wants to help then they could e-mail their MP with the URL of this site and ask the question: why? Please copy my MP, Rushanara Ali (rushanara.ali.mp@parliament.uk), with your e-mail.