MP’s live in luxury while their victims live in squalor

I was just about to make a post over at Guido’s blog regarding MP’s expense claims and how I have nothing when I thought I would make a blog post myself documenting just how badly I live. I apologise for the quality of the photographs; my camera, like its owner, is old, decrepit, and not long for this world.

This is my bedroom.

Jacqui Smith claims £611 for another bed and mattress. Well, I don’t have a bed at all. I sleep on a mattress that I luckily found in the street outside. Prior to that, I had to make do with a cheap inflatable one that I bought from Argos. The chair is one of two I found outside too. When I found then they were covered in grime from being left on someone’s patio for years. They’ve cleaned up a treat. The curtains/blinds are by the Financial Times (my favourite newspaper). It was a hell of a struggle cleaning the walls, but I did manage to get most of the graffiti off; however, if you can still see the marks and indentations in the plaster work.

This is the kitchen

When the council made their half arsed attempt to renovate this flat they did update the kitchen, but made a bit of a hash about it. However, what is important here is not the state of the kitchen, but what is not in it. The only means of cooking food is the steamer I bought. I do not have any thing else. I don’t have a fridge, or anything else.

This is my main room

It is where I spend the most time. Again the thing to be noted is the complete absence of anything.

When I was imprisoned at the hands of ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson at Mile End hospital, I was occasionally allowed to return home for an hour. Everyone that accompanied me was shocked at the conditions that I have to live under. My flat was officially noted in my file as being ‘uninhabitable’. Jonsson (even though he had never seen the flat) tried to use the fact that I was living in extremely poor conditions as evidence that I was psychotic. I suppose the reasoning went along the lines that only loonies would choose to live like that or that I was too feeble minded to live any better. It was also noted in my file that I should be helped. However, once I managed to win my freedom at a tribunal, I was refused any help.

I don’t want to be ‘given’ anything. The thing is that I should never been here and certainly not under these conditions. If the government had not stolen my livelihood I would have been living in my own property and with possessions that I have been paid for out of my own earnings.

I was not without skills. I do not have any drug or alcohol problems. I have not suffered sudden mental retardation (yes, Jonsson tried to use that one too!) I have done nothing wrong. Yet the government seeks to blame me for what happened when all along it was just that I was an innocent bystander victim of their drive-by policies.

As always: All I ever wanted to do is earn a living in peace.

The IPCC back the fascists once again

I got the results of my appeal to the decision by the IPCC about my detention this morning. Nobody will be surprised to hear that it was not upheld. The case work manager was Matthew Ward (Telephone: 0207 166 3131, email: matthew.ward@ipcc.gsi.gov.uk).

The policemen, PC Blears and PC Nash that arrested me claim to have never entered my flat and that I was detained in the common areas. This is a total lie. I was inside my home when six or more policemen came banging on my front door demanding to be let in. One was carrying a metal rod that he was handling in a way that indicated that he was preparing to beat me. When I challenged that officer about it he said that they were told that I was armed. I was ‘requested’ to go with them, but I said no. After a frank exchange of views the police officer, PC Blears, said that they could get an order to remove me. I invited them to leave and to do just that. In response, PC Blears said, “No, I’m going to arrest you for breach of the peace” and took me by the arm. I was not allowed to do anything apart from put on my shoes, and pick up my coat and keys. I was allowed to look my front door, but to make the flat secure such as switching off the central heating, lock the back door, or switch off electrical equipment like the coffee machine and computer. Once outside the building (not in the communal area as claimed), PC Blears said, “You are now no longer under arrest for breach of the peace, but I am detaining you under section 136 of the mental health act.

It make no sense to suggest that I was outside my flat, dressed in clothes that I used when doing the housework and only possessing my house keys. It is a total fabrication by the police.

The IPCC’s investigation was a total whitewash. For ages they would not investigate anyway. When they did, the policeman obviously lied and they just accepted it. The appeals process was nonsense too. Firstly, they delayed doing anything for ages, then without thinking rationally, accepted the original findings without question.

What this shows is that the police can just come to your home and abduct you without any proper legal process, lie about what they did, and there is no way that the IPCC will consider anything other than the police side of the story. This is the fascist police state that New Labour has created in the UK in action.

Updates on suicidal thoughts

Several readers of this blog have e-mailed to urge me to reconsider terminating my existence this month. Although I appreciate their concern and I have no real wish to die, none of them have made a good case for me not to go ahead with it. Some have said that worse things have happened to others, which is true, but unhelpful. The ‘something will turn up’ argument is totally without merit as given the dire economic condition that this evil and incompetent government has put us into there is no doubt that my already low income from benefits will be under threat.

One reader did get my attention when they sent me a link to a story about a young mother, Christelle Pardo, and her baby son, Kayjah, died when she was driven to jump out of window by the DWP. Caseworkers at the DWP will do anything to reduce the claimant count and they know that driving the claimant to kill themselves is a very good way to close a case and avoid any appeals. They also know that they can get away with a murder like this without any fear of being held accountable. As my emailer says,” they want you to kill yourself. Nobody will give a damn about you”

One of the major things that made me want to end it all is the continuous feeling of frustration I have as I consider all the things that I know I am capable of achieving but have been permanently denied. I have always wanted to create; that is why I refer to my death as termination rather than destruction (a concept that appeared to be beyond the comprehension of the staff in the hospital I was imprisoned in). Maybe I should marshal my thoughts into a new direction?

At this point all the people at the FTAC will be wetting themselves as they jump up and down saying, “Ah! There you see. Vague and ambiguous threats. This is typical in these cases”. They will recommend that the police come round to my house and abduct me again. The problem with people like the FTAC is that they are obsessed with finding threats where there are none to justify their existence. My response to the question ‘are you making a threat’ is (I am sorry, I cannot resist this) ‘maybe I am, or maybe I am not; you will find out someday’.

There is another way of ensuring that I pose no threat to anyone (apart from incarceration or assignation; both of which are practiced by this government) which is to actually listen to me. I can prove everything I have said. Massive damage has been done to me by the state and I am not responsible for any of it. If the damage could be repaired then it would yield immediate and large dividends. However, such thinking is beyond the capacity of this government and its operatives such as the FTAC; I am far more likely to be locked up, killed, or left to rot with the hope I will kill myself. There is no chance that they would help me and thereby several others at the same time.

As always: All I ever wanted to do is earn a living in peace.

Visit from the Victorian Institute of Forensic Mental Health in Australia

I have noticed from my visitor logs that I have been getting a few visits from the Victorian Institute of Forensic Mental Health in Australia also known as Forensicare. They are free to read my blog as anyone else. This is to be expected as this is where another specialist in the field, Dr Paul Mullen, is based. He has collaborated with Dr David James on several occasions and both lecture worldwide.

I make this offer to Forenicare, and to any other forensic mental heath department in the world except the UK: come and interview me (or fund a visit of me to you). Rather than base your beliefs on fraudulent reports from the UK and reading this blog, how about access to the primary data? I will give you detailed and honest answers to all your questions. I will provide detailed evidence to back up everything I believe so that the accusation of delusions by the FTAC and ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson can be proved to be a lie.

A good scientist would be interested in access to primary data rather than, shall we say disputed, secondary data. Are you motivated in finding out the truth or are you going with the lies?

I doubt if I will hear from anyone. The health services all claim to be ‘evidence based’, but actually they do not consider it at all. In any case, the UK would seek to block it as the last thing they want is someone investigating the details of my detention and treatment.

UPDATE (02Dec09): It will come as a surprise to nobody that the Australian equivalent of the FTAC has chosen not to avail themselves of an opportunity to learn the truth. One would have thought that proper scientist would welcome the chance of access to examine a subject that the UK FTAC has identified. Maybe they already know that I am not a real psychological case, but one of political detention and they want nothing to do with it?

A Million British people could be back in work within a month

However, they won’t. This is because the government won’t let them. If you are out of work and eager to find employment there is a job out there with your name on it. The problem is that the New Labour party have sold it to someone else from abroad why is more likely in the long term to support them rather than anyone else. This is far from a fantasy no matter what lies come of ministers’ mouths. We have had reports extracted with great pain that show that the majority of the fabled new jobs created over the last few years have gone to imported staff. Just the other month we had an admission by government advisors that the immigration policy was a deliberate attack on the British people.

My experience drawn from not only the nightmare last six years, but of past recessions gives me a perspective on the plight of those at a professional level that have lost the jobs recently. Many have commented on the plight of the young or the unskilled, but it is the professionals that will suffer in this recession. You face losing everything you have worked so hard for over the years. There is no help for you to recover. In fact, because you have been ‘a looser’ will be used against you too. I have to break it to you that you are highly unlikely to ever be employed again. You may be lucky, but don’t expect anything more that a role than demands a fraction of your ability.

Only a few of the millions of unemployed people in the country are benefit scroungers, but the government have painted all of them as such. The only help that the government gives is to offer to take benefits away; in their sick minds it will encourage people. Someone has been reading too much Samuel Johnson (“when a man knows he is to be hanged in a fortnight, it concentrates his mind wonderfully"). I always wondered how driving someone into ever deeper poverty makes them a more attractive candidate to an employer; I believe that it would have the opposite effect, but I am just a simple man.

So how do I plan to get one million people back to work within a month? In essence, I plan to give people back the jobs they should have had in the first place. Firstly, I would announce a strict audit of every work-permit, especially those for intra-company transfers, that has ever been issued and that those employers that have work-permit staff that fail this audit will face fraud charges including custodial sentences for the directors and senior executives. This measure alone will ‘encourage’ many to dump their imported staff and re-hire indigenous ones. Once a few headline convictions happen, this re-hiring will grow exponentially. Secondly, all active permits and applications are to be listed on a website where jobseekers can apply for the roles. If someone is in the role then they the permit should be suspended and the holder required to return to their own country pending the outcome of the review. If the employer does not take the applicant, then there should be an independent tribunal to judge if the employer has indeed tried to properly recruit in the UK and withdraw the permit (and prosecuted for fraud considered) if found not to have properly attempted to hire locally. Thirdly, the cost of permits should be increased, with the revenue to go into training, and their duration reduced. Unfortunately, there has been so much abuse and for so long that it will take the draconian actions outlined to bring the problem under control. These measures will create a strong demand for British staff, but not create so-called shortages as if there is a genuine need to hire overseas then they can. As the government always says, if you have done nothing wrong then you have nothing to fear.

However, there remains the problem of all the damaged souls. The first thing to do is for the government to acknowledge a few things about unemployed professionals: they are victims and not criminals; damage caused by unemployment is cumulative and reach a point of no return very easily; they don’t need to be motivated through fear; and they also require help and it’s nature is vastly different from that you inflict on levels 0, and 1 skilled people. Just remember, if you are a professional unemployed desperately looking for work, but finding no luck, it’s because New Labour sacrificed your life for the good of their party.

In my case, I am beyond recovery; the damage is just too great. Although I have tried to keep my skills current (I was once told by an idiot down the Jobcentre that I didn’t need to as IT skill are like riding a bike, you never forget), it is a bit patchy as I’ve not studied every aspect to the same depth. In any case, although it is enough for me to develop a few things, it would never be considered by any recruiter as it was not done ‘in a commercial environment’. Officially, my technical skills are stuck in 2003 which is two versions of SQL Server ago and a language that I have not written anything in for over four years as I now use C# rather than C++. Apart from atrophied technical skills, it is an unavoidable consequence of not being able to work that your financial standing is destroyed. I have a very poor financial history, but I maintain that this is not a result of my incompetence but of the damage done to me; if I had been allowed to work then it would be the excellent status as it once was. My field was finance. I used to develop trading and analytical systems for traders. To work in a financial institution requires that one has a clean financial record. Outside that field, potential employers say that I have no relevant experience.

The years have also taken its toll on my health, both physically and mentally. Now that ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson of Mile End Hospital chose to impose a Section 3 on me, I have no chance of ever working again. That Section 3 was totally fraudulent and was used to imprison me on orders from the FTAC. I am willing to be studied by an independent doctor from abroad (i.e. NOT from the NHS) and provide documentary evidence to prove that there is nothing wrong with me in the way that Jonsson claims.

However, nothing will be done and I have had enough. I am planning to kill myself sometime in the coming weeks once I have summoned up the courage. It is not something I want to do, but I face a bleak future without any hope of improvement.

All I ever wanted to do is to earn a living in peace.

So what can we do?

Old Holborn (a hero of mine, along with Guido) asks the question "What can we do?" I have made a response, but although OH has a policy on not censoring posts he may make an exception for mine. So I am posting it here too. I’ll probably expand upon the idea later.

I know that there is no chance of me ever recovering from the damage done to me by the evil New Labour regime. I also know that the Conservatives will be just as bad, if not worse in some respects. I live in squalid conditions and have no access to any help whatsoever. The prospect of living the rest of my life like this or even worse fills me with dread so I have reluctantly decided to terminate myself sometime before the end of the year. It is not something that I want to do, but I have no other choice.

Rather than kill myself quietly, alone, and not be discovered for months, maybe there should be a spectacular where everyone can see that New Labour is KILLING PEOPLE. How about setting fire to myself in Parliament Square on Christmas Day?

All I ever wanted to do is to earn a living in peace.

Forcibly drugged by ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson without medical justification

I have received an e-mail from someone called ‘Coker’ who is inquiring what drugs I was forced to take. They believe that the drugs that they were forced to take has caused permanent damage to their health. I would like to give another part of my story to explain what happened.

Doctor Ferdinand Jonsson of Mile End Hospital forced me to take anti-psychotics. However, it was only after four months of detention did he decided to do that. He and everyone else knew that it wasn’t necessary on medical grounds; it was only so he could claim that I was receiving ‘treatment’ and hence justify my continued detention.

In the first month of imprisonment under section 2 for ‘assessment’ and for the first three month held under section 3 for ‘treatment’, I received no treatment of any kind. I was purely detained. I was prescribed medication, but I refused to take it and there was no coercion to make me. It was only my attempts to appeal to his superiors for my release did ‘doctor’ Jonsson resort to force the anti-psychotic drugs on me.

Anti-psychotic drugs are highly dangerous. Thankfully, I was only on these for a couple of weeks before the tribunal set me free. They are used to treat people who supposedly suffer from a range of disorders such as schizophrenia and sever cases of bipolar disorder. They are known to have several side-effects and can be potentially fatal. They are also known for causing damage to the heart which is pertinent to me as I have a chronic case of hypertension that was well known to the medical staff at the hospital. My life was deliberately endangered by the actions of ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson.

In my case ‘doctor’ Jonsson was using a diagnosis of ‘persistent delusional disorder’ to imprison me. However, despite me making numerous formal requests I was never told: a) what those delusional beliefs were, b) what the evidence was to indicate that I held those beliefs, and c) evidence that those beliefs were actually false. Everything I said a) has come to pass and is now part of the historical record, b) I can prove by providing documentary evidence, or c) is the opinion of experts of a belief held in the wider population. The so-called diagnosis by ‘doctor’ Jonsson is a fabrication. It is a lie to justify my detention; it was purely politically motivated as I identified (and can provide evidence) the policies of the New Labour regime cased the destruction of my livelihood. Most of the people working in the NHS are Labour supporters and to hold a belief that their party could do anything that was less than perfect is a clear sign, in their eyes, of delusion.

Time has shown that the performance of the New Labour government has been a bit less than perfect. Maybe, just maybe, I might not be so delusional after all?

All the ward staff privately told me that, in their opinion, what ‘doctor’ Jonsson was doing was wrong. It led to them disobeying his orders when it came to their report to the tribunal. Instead of backing him on my continued detention, they backed me in my attempt to be released. At the tribunal, instead of the normal named nurse it was the ward manager who was there and backed me up in everything I said. The tribunals questioning of ‘doctor’ Jonsson was humiliating. In the end they had no problem whatsoever in ordering my discharge from imprisonment.

Doctor Ferdinand Jonsson is an incompetent, a liar and an abuser of his patients. He should never have been allowed to put people through the torture that he inflicts on people. The man should be in prison. I have tried to make complaints to the hospital about his behaviour by they would not seriously consider my case. I also tried to take my case to the healthcare commission, now the parliamentary and healthcare ombudsman, but they also refuse to look into the abuse I received. Anything that involves the FTAC will never be properly investigated as I also found when I tried to complain to the IPCC. They, and their operatives such as ‘doctor’ Ferdinand Jonsson, are operating outside the law without any scrutiny.

There is no hope of me every recovering from the damage that has been done to me by the evil New Labour government. There is no chance that the Conservatives would be any better for me, and may indeed be a whole lot worse. I face spending the rest of my life living in total squalor. So I am being forced to make that life short. I do not want to kill myself, but continued existence like this is impossible.

All I ever wanted to do is earn a living in peace.